july 9th 2013

https://www.box.com/s/al97xneaq5mn0wx7j61z Ayumi Hamasaki - Snowy Kiss

All of June

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MvZWCBvNx8o
http://www.4shared.com/mp3/FsTVTsfR/the_brilliant_green_-_Stand_by.html
www.youtube.com/watch?v=fMekBBUCuRY
www.youtube.com/watch?v=1N6WvFh63Wc
www.youtube.com/watch?v=fShXxi90kYk

Might add to this later.

mid-June

My filthy attempt at making an Android app

Ok, so ladies' hackathon going on right now. I made my first attempt at Android dev this week. Mobile web app, but I don't know JS. Well, like I'm kind of familiar with the syntax and everything, but I don't really know JS/JQuery if you know what I mean. I added some small touches on my little eportfolio thing that I made last month, but that was about it. No real programs written with it.
I've kind of been focused on writing functions or 100-200 line C-style programs in my programming career thus far, it's good to take up a challenge like this to see where it takes me.
HOWEVER, IT'S INCREDIBLY FRUSTRATING.
Like the pathway is like

int total_time = 30;

int carolynslife(){
if (carolyn.knowsAndroidSetUp){
    if (carolyn.knowsJS){
          total_time -= 3;
          write_code();
          return WIN_AT_LIFE;
     } else return GIVE_UP;
} else {
         carolyn.readAndroidTutorial;
         total_time -= 3;
         return GIVE_UP;
          }
}

Just kidding. This is cool! It might turn out to be a big ass waste of my time because I'm not really into app development, especially FRONT END app development, but CS is all about learning stuff rapidly, and I'm going to push my boundaries on how much I can teach myself and use resources. And if it turns out to be really really dumb, I can just jump ship.

Songs of May

Bubblegum arrived

Bubblegum (yeah, I frigging named my new ThinkPad BUBBLEGUM) arrived this morning so I spent the afternoon sprucing her up. She's super cute and way fat, I installed openSUSE on a partition in the hard drive so I still have my Win 7. Maybe one day if I can afford an SSD drive I will fix her up a little more.

 I can't wait to use her. But right now as it stands, I'm still in the process of installing Kate Editor (it's been compiling for 5 minutes... blerghfergh) and haven't even installed Eclipse. And then I'd have to reinstall a lot of stuff. :(

The problem with using a Linux distro is that I have to look out for updates myself... Man, I hope I remember. Lol, I hate computers, they're so annoying and I know nothing about them (have you read help forums, I just die).


Well, it's time for my midnight shower.

i am stumbling 2013

A continuation of last year's summer. 

A brief summary of what's happened between these two summers - how I've changed:

• I've achieved integration with my CS life, and I don't hang out as much with CSP friends, or other good friends of mine. But that's natural. It doesn't mean we don't value each other.
• I finally understand the art of studying and I'm proud of how everything turned out academically. Except chemistry/biology. I will never take a life sci course again.
• I'm okay with backgrounding my manga project significantly, intentionally, because it is a distracting cost. 
• I found some ways to cope with my (now identified) anxiety problems (I'm no DP though).  
• It's a need of mine to talk to a spectrum of people to balance my identity out. 
• After years of struggle, I left someone important to me who was having a negative impact on my life. I'm not afraid to do it again now that I've done it once.
• I'm okay with failing earlier on - I don't like it, but I'm okay with it happening, more than before. It doesn't wreck the rest of the ride anymore. 

 
 So, right now, that's me. It's all uphill from here and I crave the pain.